Hey .
if you ever read this (probably not)
I want you to know that I am very grateful
to have you in my life .
I can't imagine how my life will be without you in it .
Our relationship is the best relationship I've ever had
I hope you know that .
And i'm never brave enough to tell you this and
never will I guess but I still like you and
never ready to let you go .
I know you probably don't feel the same way anymore
but it's okay even thought it kinda hurts
seeing someone you like slowly losing interest in you .
It's just that I feel like i'm getting tired now .
Tired of trying to make it work ,
tired of caring so much because i can't stop
caring about you , tired of everything .
I think it's time for me to let it go and give up .
You're a liar when you said you care .
You just ask me if i'm okay because you're scared it
might have something to do with you .
And I know I always deny that it's not about you
and tell you i'm okay when i'm actually tearing up inside .
And i never want to tell you this because you hate this kind of stuff
and i don't want it to be a burden to you .
You said everything will be back to normal like before we're together
but guess what ? It doesn't .
You never seems like you try to make it work anymore .
Seems like you don't care about our friendship anymore .
I know I can be really annoying sometimes
but don't worry cause it'll end soon .
I won't annoy you anymore , i promise .
I'm really sorry if i pissed you off or make you angry sometimes
i never mean to hurt you or anything
but lemme tell you something
the worst feeling ever is not knowing whether
you should wait or give up .
I spend almost every night trying to figure it out
if i should wait or just give up on you .
And the truth is it hurts like hell .
But it's okay , nothings matter now .
If you like it better that way then i'm okay
with it . If you're happy i'm happy as well .
I just wish i could go back to the past ,
that's all I ever want really .
So yeah you know who you are when you read this .
Take care . Bye .
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